true colors

for a while i have been blinded by my 'friends' actions because i thought that our friendship was too precious to risk

i don't believe in friendships anymore

well some at least

if i'm not happy, then i'm not happy

no amount of years can change that

so with pure pride, i ended it. bam. honestly i wished i would have expressed myself more with that

another one of my past friendships is coming back...again...and i hate it because no one can see through their lies but i know who they really are. so when they get hurt, darn.

also, if you're mad at me, i would appreciate if you told me so. if you don't, then in my eyes, you're a fucking bitch

but in the end i have been there for someone like with all my heart, even though it hurts me a lot to help them out, i know it's for the better. what we have, i rather have than nothing. if that makes sense

so in the end, your true colors aren't that hard to see, and it could be the reason why i DON'T love you

but then again who knows

something's gotta give

^^i don't even think that's a song^^

ok

so

life sucks

i'm just gonna say it

so much shit going on right now

uh

haha

ok but

i know what i need:

a distraction

something to remind why i am still living and remember that life is something not to be taken granted for and should be live to the fullest extent

but i really can't be distracted by anything without returning to where i originally began

but there is something that helps me get by

m.u.s.i.c.

for me, music is the air i breathe, and the legacy that will live on

so you know fuck new year bullshit.every day should be new, just because a date has change, your perspective on life shouldn't. if you wanted something done, you had the whole damn year to do it.

besides

i don't wanna be anyone new really.

i just wanna be happy.

i just wanna go one day and say 'it was a good day'

one day. one goal. one song.

just gotta find it