emotions.

holy shit i can't write

last post made absolutely no sense

wtf

ok so

let's recap

i isolated myself from the world because the world wanted to be mean to be

then i entered the world [kindaish] again

and the world was just as cruel

so i tried. now i can say i tried. but to be honest being alone is sometimes better

even though i would like someone to be there sometimes, that's not how it is.

no one will ever be there for you in life when you need them most. and the only person you can trust is yourself.

so i might so hermit mode again i dunno

oh yea

uuuummmm since ______ [you know who you are dickshit] wanted to be an ASSHOLE

WE ARE NOT FRIENDS ANYMORE

so stop telling people i'm mad at you. being mad implies we are still together

but we aren't you wanted to talk shit and think you know everything. fine. be a fucktard. i wish a cruel death upon you.

the reason

last post was in march only seems natural to try and get back into this

it's not gonna work tho but but eh whatev

ummm so i was considering leaving sac because of how it just hold my mistakes in my face and but i dunno. not feeling life lately. wonder why i'm still living

ever lose a best friend? ever lose a best friend 7 times?

stopped talking to everyone because everyone wanted to be a BITCH at the same time

and kristina doesn't do emotions anymore, so i just stopped talking to everyone

but then i went to summer school...and saw everyone...and they seem mad...i dunno i really don't care tho i should but i really don't and i don't know what i'm doing in life anymore

i'm not living for anything or anyone not even myself so why am i alive? i dunno

hhmmmm yea is this melancholy the result of a certain person's actions? it's certainly a beginning

but seriously, i'm done with this. i need a reason to continue one. i already have my reasons not to