sometimes i feel bad

because i want to kill people. i really fucking do. maybe they don't have to die by my hands, but i do want them dead. maybe this is some spur of the moment kind of thing, but it seems like i'm digressing in maintaining my anger. then again, i know i have been getting better because i ain't knocked no one's ass out yet.

school has started and i have seen all my problems delivered to me on a silver platter. i see WHO all my mistakes are. i've realized that the people who i've chose to spend my life with are awful, cruel, inconsiderate, selfish assholes.
now i'm angry because i'm sad and i have no one to turn to. THAT is how i feel like i have digressed

i felt like Mikey and Alex needed to know some information about because i thought they were my friends. but friends don't let friends go crazy, and they are pushing me towards that way everyfuckingday.
they aren't my friends-they are my biggest mistakes.

i can't control the actions of him but i didn't think out telling those to dipshits. ugh, it really does kill me that they know and they don't even bother to help.
once again biggest mistakes

i don't know how i'm going to prosper from all of this chaos right now.
but i do know that i need to keep my anger down along with my fist. so far i've been doing an excellent job.
school is def gonna keep me busy, i know that for sure.
going to court? i don't know if i can do it...
alex and mikey -> fuck you.

megan and jonathan ->love you

"kristina you are undoubtable, anything you set your mind to you can do it"