mama said there be days like this

so as summer vacation rolls along i still have nothing to do.
oh bother
and i'm not having the best of days either. it's like im here getting in trouble and that's all i can do
i know i don't want to be back in school i despise that place
i much rather do nothing...but when i want to
not when my mother says to me 'you have to listen to me, or you know what you have to do.'

the bitch

but whatever

-cut to me listening to 'i'll be in the skyyy'-

she works hard for the money

i wake in the mornin with a big smile on my face =]
no plans today but my mother asks me if i did i said no
then my father tells me that me and my sister have to clean out the fridge but the he says that karrin doesnt have to anymore she has to water the grass
grrrr
then mariah calls and invites me to a picnic and i HELLA was trying to go but my mom said that i couldnt because it was a 'family holiday'
so i never went ='[
then karrin left for work =\
so then kim came home from camping [may i remind you she hella left without doing any of her chores. she just bounced]
so she comes home and my dad says me and her have to fold clothes
but kim said she cant because she is going to a bbq
so now im mad because not only is she getting out of work AGAIN but she also gets to leave
eventually she did fold clothes TOOK HER FOREVER THO and she had to clean the kitchen even though she tried to get out of that too...

bottom line is i hate having to do all the work and still be called the lazy one around here
it's just not fair

what's going on

eeeey
it's been a while
so
yea

me and darkness are friends again, and i have to say, it's pretty nice
I"M OUT OF SCHOOL finally
even though my parents don't believe me w h a t e v e r

yesterday was so dramatic kinda not really
i was just sad because i was unable to celebrate my friend's 18th it was just bullshit
but the night prior to that i told jon that all brandon wanted for his bday was a hug and much to my surprise he said yes
i went over the plans with brandon and then he said that i, kristina, had to hug jon instead...
the little fuck
so then i kinda told jon
and then we decided to make it purple day [just like old times] and he said yes to that too
so then i wake up late and had to tell everyone what's going on
jon said he would wait
now it's just getting weird
so after like DAYS i get to school but can only stay for a whooping 15 minutes
so i tell him this and he said he'll be there asap
and he was he RAN so that got me thinkin...good thoughts now [oh and he was wearing his purple shirt =]]
so we did our epic hug and then i had to leave RIGHT AFTER
so i'm hella heated on the way home
like super to the maxx

then i get a text from jon
and now i know he officially wants answers...i don't want to jump to conclusions and say he wants to be friends but so right now the future for us is looking a hell of a lot brighter

but i still have to ask myself
why do i want to be his friend?
i shouldnt even have to ask that i should just be happy that we are kinda talking again
but will it really be all worth it? all we did was fight and what's going to happen now? just forget? bring it back up 24 sev?
i don't know...

all i can do now is wait and hope

i hate ____ so much right now

so
i was going to talk to ___ because for a quick second i was actually concerned about his well being
and i asked _____ to like set it up
but then last minute he said no

then i was infuriated
but i didnt tell anyone because for once i wanted to figure out something on my own
so
i just got hella
like always
but didnt know whyyyy

so yesterday i stayed at home all day did nothing talked to no one
but was still mad
i think i was mad at _____ is because i feel like he backstabbed me [oh that's never happened before =/]
so yea
i dont know what to do anymore
so i'll just sit here and wait for something to happen
even if it's bad
which that i most likely gonna happen