what's going on

eeeey
it's been a while
so
yea

me and darkness are friends again, and i have to say, it's pretty nice
I"M OUT OF SCHOOL finally
even though my parents don't believe me w h a t e v e r

yesterday was so dramatic kinda not really
i was just sad because i was unable to celebrate my friend's 18th it was just bullshit
but the night prior to that i told jon that all brandon wanted for his bday was a hug and much to my surprise he said yes
i went over the plans with brandon and then he said that i, kristina, had to hug jon instead...
the little fuck
so then i kinda told jon
and then we decided to make it purple day [just like old times] and he said yes to that too
so then i wake up late and had to tell everyone what's going on
jon said he would wait
now it's just getting weird
so after like DAYS i get to school but can only stay for a whooping 15 minutes
so i tell him this and he said he'll be there asap
and he was he RAN so that got me thinkin...good thoughts now [oh and he was wearing his purple shirt =]]
so we did our epic hug and then i had to leave RIGHT AFTER
so i'm hella heated on the way home
like super to the maxx

then i get a text from jon
and now i know he officially wants answers...i don't want to jump to conclusions and say he wants to be friends but so right now the future for us is looking a hell of a lot brighter

but i still have to ask myself
why do i want to be his friend?
i shouldnt even have to ask that i should just be happy that we are kinda talking again
but will it really be all worth it? all we did was fight and what's going to happen now? just forget? bring it back up 24 sev?
i don't know...

all i can do now is wait and hope