it kinda came back to me
but not in a way in which i could be hurt
it just came back at me like i was the one who was wrong like i was the one who made the mistakes
umm
apparently i don't have a heart...
i don't know how to really feel about it except for being confused
i think instead of people actually realizing that they were wrong, they just tell me that I'm a bitch and don't care how people feel
because really no one has moved on, but just living in the moment that we should have forgotten by now
i think that is it : instead of saying "oh i was a dumb ass. i was emotionally blind" they are doing "oh it was just a mistake...it wont happen again...oh he is going through some hard times..."
NO
that is not what is happened
he moved on
he didn't learn
he didn't care
and i HATE talking/thinking about him
but honestly [I'm not done]
OK liiiiike he was exposed to his mistake and then blew the shit off
then ask for pity, GOT IT, then walked off
now i am the one who is heartless because i don't care
because i was the one who fell over and over and over again for the same routine
but now I'm mad because he still doesn't care about i feel
like after all of this he still doesn't truly know what i think
he thinks I'm mad at , which i am, but he doesn't even know why
and to me
that is like pretending i never even mattered
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