so amazing

it's so amazing how a song can make you feel
it can make you feel better about yourself like you are actually a part of it
like it was written just for you, like elton john sat down and said 'i feel the love tonight and i know jordan will too.' or when celine dion sang the words 'it's all coming back to me' she knew what was coming back from her past and she knew that feeling was universal. it was something complicated but made sense when put into song

i guess that's how i fell right now too
complicated.
right now i see life as not that important
i know life is too short to watse time, but what is our time? how do we know when we will die and leave this earth? or better yet die on the inside and left here to sit around and watch what else is going on

i've died on the inside
i've given up

on what exactly? i would have to say everything
i don't get excited like i used to. because if, and most likely when, something goes wrong, i won't feel let down.

i've officially taught myself not to feel

.....

kinda emo sounding right now really
but i don't know what the fuck else to do
when i try to see my future, i see a vast abyss staring at me cold.
there's nothing in the future waiting for me
just things in the past that i've missed
and now i'm in the future
just waiting