time.

being in the right at the place wrong time.

this guy met me, cuz i sure as hell wasn't looking.
and he says nice things about me.
bad/sad thing about that is i do not believe him
i've actually turned into this bitch demon diva because i have already made it up in my mind that he is going to hurt me and i rather hurt him before he gets the chance to hurt me.
but somewhere inside of me, something is telling me to trust and believe him
and i WANT to so bad
but i still can't. but i've gotten better...a lot better.
really it hurts me to know someone actually might care about me, and i can't return those feelings.

it's everything i wanted at a time i can't have it.

and i don't even know if these feeling are real. do i like him because he's cool or do i like him because he likes me...HOW COCKY IS THAT???
BUT at the end of the day, i got wayyyy to much baggage to board any emotional plane and i rather lose him now than when it will hurt too much.

hahaha now i wanna be happy and believe in people again. too much?