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i had a nightmare
like real nightmare. and it was scary as fuuuuck.

i was scared in my dream, and even more on edge when i woke up
so it feels like i'm back to the beginning. like all the progress [which fades in and out] has been depleted

so i don't know how to feel. i don't know what would be proper

but i do feel

• angry
• pissed
• depressed
• useless
• drained
• pathetic
• crappy
• back to the beginning

so, even tho my dream wasn't real, it feel so much like it, cuz i'm back to where i started from

[yeah im on repeat but hey i'm depressed]